something something 08

I managed to sketch this with my pigments before in died. R.I.P. beloved pigments :(
Anyways. I can say that out of all my sketches, this would be one of the best. The first best would be the crazily detailed one of a Burberry ad. I don't think I have the picture. It's on dad's Facebook. But, heck yeah. I'M PROUD OF THIS ONE YO!

I'm not so sure about the eyes. I don't really like it somehow. I think it's because I put in a little bit too much of the detail. Other than that, I think it's purdee. I don't know what you think. I think that you think I'm too self-absorbed in myself for saying it's a very pretty sketch. In other words, I'm complementing myself. Alright, if you didn't understand that knock my on the head when you see me :D

So right now, I need money. I need a new set of pigments. I need a tub of impasto, retarder and gesso maybe? Krhkrh.

g'mornang

So here I am, up at the early hours of the morn with a tall mug of Twinning's Lady Grey tea just so I can use the broadband stick. The joy of snooping around. Haha. Oh, and did you hear? Results are on the 24th. I feel so...nervous. Actually, that's not the correct word, no. I don't know what the correct word for it is.

Anyway, I've been contemplating. The decision I'm about to make is no fun, and I have to make it fast. It's only in a matter of weeks. Alright. Let me stop being so, I don't know, mysterious about it. So here: I passed the admittance entrance exam for Adni and they're holding my spot there until MRSM results come out and I have to give my blardee desicion. I would've spilled this earlier on but, you know how things get with me. Therefore I am contemplating every single minute of the day now. I've narrowed my decisions down, though:

1. If I don't get into MRSM, Adni I shall go
2. If I do get into MRSM, I will think things over.
3. Dump Adni and MRSM, stay in Section 5
4. Homeschool

Okay, laugh at the 4th one. I don't mind. I'll be laughing along with you as well :) But anywhoo. I have indeed weighd my pros of all my decisions. The pros of Adni:

1. I don't have to sit for SPM because I've chosen the English medium, therefore I'll be sitting for IGCSE instead.
2. If I do well, I can jump straight to secondary 5 and finish school earlier. Which is impossible in my case seeing my tarnished results. HE HE.
3. After IGCSE, I will be done with school considerably early. Like, three weeks earlier than when SPM is just about to start.
4. Apparently, there will be a guaranteed spot at UIAM. Makes things easier for my parents. Duh.

The pros of MRSM:

1. Great facilities
2. Higher chances of going overseas. That is even if I do well and get a scholarship. Hello?! AM I THAT CAPABLE LAH?

Therefore in any case at all, Adni wins. But even so, I haven't made my decision and they're still holding my spot so everything is okay I suppose. Except for the fact that I am indeed near to banging my head on the wall about this. It's just that my head hurts every single bloody time I try to make my mind up.

I wish I could make things easier and just stay in Section 5. But things will never be that easy. Especially when you have parents who expect a lot out of you, and there are people around you have great expectations of you and know that you will be a someone one day-and no, none of this are bad things.

Okay. There you go. A week's worth of bantering with myself.

plaisir

Oh woe, I've been eating a lot. I ate 5 scoops of ice cream just now. It was supposed to be shared and yet, Yusof didn't even touch much of it. In the end, I had to finish it. Oh well. I didn't mind. I enjoy eating. And I now have Wuthering Heights! The clothbound edition from Penguin Classics. I love! I regret not buying The Lost Symbol but...this book was too tempting.

My God. I'm so bad!

DISASTER

Okay, I wouldn't call my first attempt at carbonara a disaster but it's pretty much close. My first attempt, so? Haha. What happened was I used the wrong method of heating the carbonara sauce. Why? Because there were 6 egg yolks in it, mixed with cream and I-stupidly-heated it over a hot fire and it turned into a semi-scramble egg thing. But somehow, it tastes fine. It smells, well, like typical carbonara. Which is good. Even mum says it smells fine so, I guess it's okay *grin* But either way, I will try making it again tomorrow morning and for dinner, pesto. Dad wants a pesto pizza though. We shall see.
Also, I found this at Kinokuniya just now. I swear everyone looked at me when I yipped with happiness. I don't know why but I find cooking very interesting. Especially after watching Julie & Julia, I became inspired. Right now I'm going to try out with pasta and spaghetti first. After I'm done with it, I shall pray that either mum or dad get me this lovely recipe book and I shall try all of it out. And over the holidays, I will be cooking. If you want free food, do come over and be my food-critic.

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Disaster n°deux;

It's not exactly a disaster; I may be overreacting but I might not be able to go to AFG tomorrow and see Mei. Dad and mum claim that they are busy. Not that I blame them or anything. But well, I don't know. I'm frustrated.

:(

something something 07

The sketch in which my pigments decided to die. I think it looks horrible. Some of my recent sketches look like this. Unfinished, messy, disoriented. I don't know. I think something's going on inside my brain but I can't put a finger on it. But I promise I'll come up with better sketches. I might try with pencil. But that really isn't my forte. I don't even know what in the world is my forte.

Janiz said that I have a very carefree thing going on about me. She sees it in my drawings and such. Darrell, on the other hand, is very detailed. So, there you go. My long lost brother is a mirror image of me, in some ways. Okay. Excuse the influence from Her Fearful Symmetry here.

I'm sorry, by the way :'(

mirror images

Each of them warmed to the sound of the other's voice. They lay in the dark
together, in distant cities, each of them thinking, We were lucky this time. And
they pressed their phones closer to their ears, and both of them wondered how
much longer this separation could go on.
-Her Fearful Symmetry; Audrey Niffenegger

If I were to decide which of Audrey Niffenegger's book I prefered, I'd say The Time Traveller's Wife. I think that Her Fearful Symmetry is a bit too dark for me. Oh well. Right now I'm thinking of saving up my money to buy the RM80 Wuthering Heights sold at Kinokuniya. It's hardcover so I suppose it's a good price.

Other books include:

1. The Lost Symbol; Dan Brown
2. Shakespeare; Bill Bryson
3. Mastering the Art of French Cooking; Julia Child

Okay. I'm not serious about the third one. Haha. But yeah, I'd love to have it. I've been cooking lunch for the kiddos these past few days. It's hardly mum-standard, but they love it. So, yeah. Anyway. Suggest me more books, please. And nothing to do with a vampire love story or such. I NEED CHANGE YO.